My words and actions don't always help keep his reputation good either. If I could only make my heart translate to my fingers the words to describe the God I know. The real God. The God who has blasted through my life and blown up the lies I thought were truth about Him. I fumble with the right way to say what He truly has done, can do, and wants to do in the life of the weakest saint and strongest sinners.
But the translation gets lost and muddled and misappropriated and, like many before me, who have trudged through words and done a better job of interpretation than I can do, they fail too. Even those who penned the words Jesus said, who heard him say what he said, who wrote it down as the Holy Spirit gave it to them, their words fall and fail just as hard as mine do.
Falling down, down, down, bumping against hard rock and steel, making dents here and there but still not breaking through to the soul.
And God lets it.
Doesn't that drive you bananas, Church?! It does me! He is the one who gives faith. He is the one who gives wisdom, understanding, and grace abundant, yet somehow, for some reason known only to Him, He keeps the door open enough for us to walk through, yet closed enough -not latched or locked, just resting on the latch - so that somehow we are the ones who have to push the door open. To enter into the place of His rest, His truth, and His hope.
We can't unlock the door to our hardened hearts, but we do, I think anyway, have to be the ones to push the door open to let the fulness of His light in.
Lots of people walk by that unlocked door thinking it's locked, that God is keeping it locked so we can't walk in.
But here are some clearly written words (your misinterpretation of them is your fault alone):
The door is unlocked!
Jesus is on the other side of that unlocked door, knocking, trying to get your attention - boy he has to use some hard things to get you to notice - but he's there on the other side as you walk by a door you think is locked. You hear the knocking. Knock, knock, knock. He's on the other side of that door, standing there, waiting for you to just give it a little poke with your finger. You don't even have to try and turn the knob, just give it a little push with your pinky.
That's why you give God a bad rap (pun intended).
You say, "If God were really a loving God He would open the door wide so I could see Him standing there on the other side."
Friend, if you could see God, you would fall on your knees and His light and goodness would be too bright for your mind and soul and eyes to handle.
You say, "If there is a God, He would be a fair God and He would stop the evil that is going on."
Friend, He is a fair God and before you can blink, His fairness will be distributed, evenly and without doubt. All things will be given their fair and just reward. Are you sure you want ALL things to be made fair your way?
You say, "I don't deserve God's love and grace after all I've done."
Friend, you're right. But God doesn't give like we give. God's reward and punishment is so not like our system.
You say, "If there is a God, why didn't/doesn't he do something to fix my past, my present, or my sins I keep repeating. When God does what I require of Him, then...then, I'll believe there is a God."
Ok, Friend. Sooner or later you'll have to stop telling him how you would fix your life and just let him fix your life. His way. Your way isn't working or you wouldn't be arguing with him. Stop arguing and telling him what to do. When you can make a tree, then you can tell him what to do and how to do it.
You say, "I don't like God because his people are a bunch of hypocrites."
Yep. No argument there. Jesus wouldn't disagree with you, but the word Jesus used was based on a theatrical practice. Acting. We pay a lot of money to watch people act in movies and waste a lot of time watching them act on tv. Why do you like those "hypocrites" and applaud their indiscretions not holding them accountable by not paying to see them with your time and money? Why is their hypocriteness less hypocritical then a follower of Jesus?
See, you have all these excuses for why God is not trustworthy, yet all those things are on your terms, based on second hand knowledge. You haven't found out for yourself. You haven't pushed open the door just a little bit to let his light in.
You've used a lot of excuses and pointed a long finger at many reasons why, but in the end, it really is up to you to open the unlocked door. No one can do it for you. I can't. Your friend can't. Your annoying spouse can't. Your even more annoying Christian neighbor can't. Only you can walk through the unlocked door.
Jesus unlocked it for you. If you need help to open it, He'll do that for you too. But stop wasting your time finding more and more reasons as to why you won't at least let God speak for Himself to your life.
The blame game has to stop. The accusations have to be laid down. Either God is who He said he is or He's not.
Peace, Friend, really, I wish you
To Him who is able to keep you from falling and to present you before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy - to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forever more!